When I was in high school, a guidance counselor asked me who I wanted to be when I grew up.
She listed off careers based on my grades in certain classes.
I felt a strange sensation when I heard each option listed one by one.
I looked at her and asked, “What if I wanted to be them all?”
She smiled and said it was okay if I hadn’t made up my mind yet.
I carried the weight of choosing on my shoulders, the world trying to pigeonhole me into something specific.
Each day towards adulthood I felt more and more stressed. I went to college for business and cried to and from classes.
I felt miserable being forced into a choice.
“But I want it all,” I would say. “I want to be a musician, a painter, a writer, an actress, a minister, a librarian, a historian, a social worker, an interior designer, an event planner … I want to make things with my hands and with my mind. I want to be a waitress and a business owner. I want to be a teacher and a psychologist. I want to run for a governmental office.”
I wanted to be it all.
I quit college.
I told myself I didn’t have to choose.
So I didn’t.
I was a waitress. I was a minister. I was a musician and a music teacher. I haven’t been a librarian, but I go to the library and pretend. I haven’t been a historian, but I read history books for fun. I take pride in designing my home. I teach my children and was even a nanny. I’ve auditioned for plays. I counsel my husband and my friends. I create something new every day. I own my own business. I’m a writer and a marketer and a graphic designer.
I’m a storyteller.
I learned the difference between a trade and a dream.
And, yes, eventually I went back to college. This time, on my terms and a new mindset that I wasn’t making a permanent decision to give up a million passions for only one. I graduated with my B.A. in Sociology from the University of Florida May 2019. Ten years after I started.
I understand now that I never had to choose one thing to do for the rest of my life.
I only had to focus long enough and choose what to do NEXT.
I had to develop a discipline of followthrough and know when to set down a plate to spin a new one for a while.
I haven’t been “it all,” but I’ve been “enough.”
Looking back, now I know, I always was.
Who do I want to be?
Me. I choose me.
So what about you? What can you expect when you come here?
A little bit of everything.
BUT, if you want to know where I’ve been …
- 6 years experience as an entrepreneurial content marketer
- Highly motivated ghostwriter and copywriter for social media, blogging, email-marketing, etc.
- An avid reader and novelist who enjoys exploring bookstores and dreaming in coffee houses.
- A dreamer and storyteller
- A musician and artist
- Entirely her own and entirely herself
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